Floating
warmly next to my mom in her endless sea of covers, I stared at her
ceiling and
asked her, "why is your chandelier not in the
middle?" I remember this morning, it was early and we had just
moved into our new house, my brothers were not yet awake, and it was
just me and my mom tucked away on the shore of a lazy Sunday morning. "Well
my dear", she began, "life isn't always centered and certainly
not perfect."
Although I laughed at her for answering my silly question so seriously,
I sat there for moments after wondering to my little self what she
meant. At this point I had never really struggled with anything, what
problems was I going to have? It was hard to understand and relate
to. But if anyone knows what it is like to struggle with life, it is
my mom. Through a disastrous divorce, raising four children on her
own while working two jobs, going to school for her masters at the
same time, and battling cancer; my mom has had her fair share of hardships.
My mom alerted her four children that there would be many battles
in life, she prepared us extensively and made it known to us that some
are meant to be won and others not, but either way you find the strength
within yourself and your family to fight the fight and give it your
all.
Through
life's unpredictable moments, I have learned first hand not to take
anything for granted.
Life itself is sacred, and how you play
it out and overcome the challenges is a great reflection of the person
you are. My mom has taught me to find balance and strength deep within
myself, and to be independent and confident when undertaking life's
unpredictable strides. I struggled through high school trying to find
balance between academics, caring for my family, extracurricular activities,
athletics and work. I now understand how terribly "off-center" life
can be, but at the same time am able to accept what life gives me.
Her encouragement and knowing how strong she has been through it all
has influenced me to do the same. She encouraged me, even when she
was weak in her hospital bed, to succeed by making the fight and putting
the effort forward whether it was towards academics or being emotionally
strong for my family.
Upon transitioning here at Hope College, I am aware that many things
will be thrown my way, and I feel confident and prepared to overcome
those challenges. I know that the challenges that I will face here
will only make me stronger as a student and as a person. I am eager
to have these new experiences and eager to achieve them. Thanks to
my wise mother, I know to expect everything other than perfection,
and am able to live each day knowing that I am a strong woman and
can handle life's obstacles no matter how "off centered" they
are.